When C first came, I knew within 12 hours that she wasn't going to be here long. So, when my bed room looked like a Goodwill donation center and the paperwork piled up, I just said to myself, "I'll take care of that after she goes."
And I did.
When J came, I first thought it would be a short period. Not as short as C, mind you, but still short. I took care of clothes as needed. I kept my apartment cleaned and the refrigerator stocked and cleaned out, as needed. Some of this happened while she was there. Some of it I scheduled for when she would not be there. I gradually became used to shopping with her and having her try on clothes and sharing her, very opinionated, thoughts of clothing.
However, there were times I thought, "It's okay to go without sleep or to stock pile the DVR. I'll have personal time again soon." I had that same thought about paperwork.
Except part of the problem was that I didn't always realize that was how I was thinking. It helped when I stopped expecting to sleep through the night. It helped when she started falling asleep earlier, and I still had some energy, so I could get some things done after she went to sleep. I could have some "me" time...which is like gold, I tell you!
However, I just realized yesterday that the paperwork has still piled up. I have a 4" binder that is full and is piled with another 2" of paperwork on top. I got an email today that a bill is due today. (I was able to call and pay it over the phone. Thank goodness!)
My mindset needs to shift. My life now includes an active 5 year old. Period. Not "for a time, it includes an active 5 year old". I need to be able to, and now feel much more confident that I can, handle paperwork with her there.
What other things do I need to shift my mindset on?
Do you have anything you need to shift your mindset on?
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